should i give up?? no, or rather, should i quit?? i hate it, things just go so wrong. i don't know how. no one understands...i don't understand it myself. i've waited so long, in hope that things could be how it was in the past. but it din work. i can't believe i cried so many times. its so stupid.
yuen weilin..i trusted you alot. you were so important to me. i don't know if u know....but..during the farewell party. when you asked me not to touch u, i was deeply hurt. i dont know why. as in, what's wrong with touch now?? its just touch. argh....how many times...not thinking dirtyly, but just friendly kind of touch. would it hurt?? i can't...i can't understand. yes, you've changed....i know that i can't help it...but why..isit because of that incident you can't forget? i'm sorry. really sorry. i din mean it. argh..u said things could return to the past...but some things you can't just say it and don't mean it. i really wish i could trust you one last time on that. i try. i hung onto that last hope. but its not working out.
god, please let things have a good turn. i beg of you. i can't lose her. i'll do anything within my means. god, i beg of you.
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