why, i don't feel like i'm 'it' at all. maybe somethings are just not up to me to decide. maybe i should quit, maybe i should back down, maybe u guys have far more potential than me. why isit that i feel rotten? why must you all make some decisions, yet don't inform me about it? i feel like a fool. i don't blame you all, you all have a mindset of your own too. i don't want to emphasize on that fact that i'm 'it'. i don't want ppl to think i'm abusing my authority, i don't want ppl to despise me because they think i'm bragging about my top post. i'm not. i just feel out of place. is madm xinyu and weilin right? is what they say coming true? am i losing my position already?? am i? i really wanna know, i'm bewildered.
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